Archive for December, 2007
Well, I made it through the night quite well. I decided to take a Darvocet in hopes of getting a good night’s sleep and it didn’t really let me down. I was out. To be safe, I only took a 1/4 of the dose. With any medication that has sedative effects, I’m out. So even with Benadryl or Tylenol PM I’ve found that I’m safest if I 1/2 or 1/4 the dose so I’m not totally out of it the next morning. As for the pain, it’s under control. I can feel that the Darvocet is wearing off and I have some throbbing, but I’ve already taken some Ibuprofen in hopes of having it kick in. Looking at my head this morning, I think it looks pretty good. Most people wouldn’t even notice the lesions/bruises that are present. On the other hand, I have one near my left temple that is blue and a little more pronounced. Not that I wear much makeup, but I’m avoiding any as to not cause any further infection. I’ve been religious about applying triple antibiotic ointment and I think I have a permanent greasy head. Even after washing my hair multiple times this morning it was still greasy. Yuck. I have to apply the ointment 3 times daily. I would have preferred to just shave my head, but most would think that extreme since my entire head isn’t covered with wounds. Ah well, greasy head it is. One of the medications is also making me parched. I was so thirsty last night and this morning I woke up with the driest mouth.
I had hoped to run yesterday evening but my realistic side told me not too. That would have been kind of fun trying to run while falling asleep. Interesting. I wanted to make sure I got a run in today (which is usually a “day off”). Being that it’s Friday, when I get off of work I didn’t want to have to worry about getting a run in, so I got up at 5am and took off by myself. It felt good. It was the type of run where I had gotten so far, so I decided to go farther. When I met that goal, I went farther again. Remember, the Forrest Gump mindset? Yep, that’s it. I went a total of 3.73 miles, which I believe is my longest run yet by myself. Cool beans. In addition we’ve been hovering around the 2 mile mark these past few weeks due to the weather, so it was nice to kick up the distance. And lastly, I still kept a good average pace. Not 9:38/mile mind you, but I managed a 10:07/mile pace. Not bad considering my distance was almost double and it’s still much lower than my median average. I feel pretty darn good.
Now, let’s get this thing called Friday started so I can then start into a thing called The Weekend.
I got my first actual pair of running shoes for Christmas, from Mom and Dad. Now, you’re probably thinking, “But you’ve been running for 8 months and have been wearing shoes. Aren’t they running shoes?” Well, yes but technically no. The shoes which I started running in were trail/running shoes. When I got the running “bug” I needed shoes. Not really knowing what to do, mom and I went out and grabbed a pair that I thought would work. Little did I know what we were buying. But they worked and I was out running…that’s all that I cared about.
When we went to Florida in September I saw these Asics and fell in love with them. Of course ya’ll know me though, and I walked away from them. When we arrived back in Sandusky we happened to pass them at MC Sports here in town and my mom had me try them on. They felt perfect so mom got them but held onto them until Christmas. I know choosing running shoes shouldn’t be about what they look like, but at least I’m moving in the right direction…next up, actually being fit for shoes. We definitely need to take a trip up to see Erika, KD, and the kids, and stop by Second Sole.
I can’t believe the difference in them compared to my old shoes. So light and bouncy. I couldn’t help but go, “Boing! Boing! Boing!” as I started to run tonight. In addition to feeling light and bouncy I had a personal best since I’ve had the Garmin. My median average pace is around 10:30-10:40/mile. (Yes, I know I’m slow). On a good day I get down to around 10:10/mile or slightly less. Well, today I hit 9:38/mile. Hot dang! (happy dance). My previous best was 9:47/mile at a shorter distance. I’m digging these recent “advances” that I’ve made in running. For the first time my speed is starting to pick up. I know it probably helps listening to music and having new shoes, but I can’t help but hope that it’s also my body finally coming together and accepting me running.
In other running news, on the recommendation of Erika, I ordered David’s Pro-tec Patellar Tendon Straps, which should help stabilize both of his knees. We were upgraded to 2 day shipping so they should be here before we know it. Awesome. Gotta get geared up for our Half Marathon training! By the way, David agreed to running the Cleveland Half too. When I told him I was participating his response was, “What about me?!” Of course I’m up for him doing it and am glad that he wants to participate. We have yet to actually register as I need to contact my school. You see, my classes start May 12th and it’s the semester I have go down to Texas for a week. Considering the run is on the 18th I should be safe because I would think that they wouldn’t send me down there the 1st week of classes. You never know though. I hope to contact the school first thing after the winter break (Jan. 2nd) and see what they have to say. I’m sure they can’t give me a definite answer given that it’s a semester away, but I’m sure we can look at past year’s schedules and see when it was done. Cross your fingers!
My Aunt Cindy was diagnosed with Acute Myelogenous Leukemia (AML) in early 2006. She’s an amazing woman with the best heart and such drive and determination. She never let this disease stop her. Even throughout chemo, a bone marrow transplant, and post-bone marrow transplant struggles, her smile shined through. It wasn’t until September of this year that her counts are staying within normal range. As to be expected she will be under close watch with her doctors but She Believed She Could, So She Did.
Today my mom presented my Aunt Cindy with a keepsake..something that she’s been holding on to until the right moment. Awhile back we were in Hallmark and it caught my eye. I showed it to my mom and she agreed that it’d be perfect for my Aunt Cindy.
So simple, yet so true. This whole concept has taken a new meaning for me within the past year. From this little quote I’ve come up with an idea. It’s called the “She Did Award”. We have such amazing women in our family that do stupendous things, that I feel should be recognized for what they do. So I call on my family members, both immediate and extended, to take my idea and run with it. Recognize the women in your life, whether they are family or friends, when they accomplish something spectacular. Having thought of this idea, I will “award” those that have initiated my thought process in making the She Did Award….
Aunt Cindy-She Believed She Could Beat AML, So She Did.
Libby-Aunt Cindy’s Sister-She Believed She Could Help Her Sister By Donating Her Bone Marrow, So She Did.
Erika-She Believed She Could Run A Marathon, So She Did.
Aunt Therese-She Believed She Could Earn Her PhD, So She Did.
Goals are hardly ever easy to attain. While going through trials and turbulations you often want to quit. However, these women have shown that when you face those, along with your fears, inconveniences, and doubts, there is a great reward in the end.
As stated above, this idea has been evolving over the past year. I had thought of presenting it at the family gathering today but chickened out, as I didn’t feel it was the right time. I do hope that this is an idea that can continue on whether they are “presented” at family gatherings, a letter or email, or even a simple acknowledgement when you see the person.
David and his Dad arrived safely in Minnesota this afternoon. As for the weather…it’s pretty bad up there. Lots of snow and a ton of cars off the road. They are now at the game and as usual, hoping for a win. As of this moment it’s not looking too good. I just hope they have a good time together and arrive home safely.
This afternoon was our big extended family gathering. This year it was held at our local Elks Lodge and was great. It’s always good to see everyone and catch up. With a lot of people having blogs you can actually carry on conversations with people instead of having the problem of not knowing what to talk about, or trying to spit out all you’ve done since you’ve last seen them. Much better than it used to be. I’ve already posted pictures from the gathering so be sure to check out our Flickr account.
While at the gathering Erika came over to see me and told me she had a proposition for me….she asked if I’d run the Cleveland Half-Marathon, that’s in May. When it came out of her mouth I’m not sure what the look was on my face. More than likely the, “Oh Jesus, I don’t know if I can do that. Do you realize that’s 13.1 miles…of course you realize that’s 13.1 miles…you’ve run 26.2 miles!” look. I let the thought settle in my brain and realized, “I can do that!” I told her I’d be up for it but she’s going to have to walk me through the training schedule, when to start, etc. While posting pictures on Flickr I took a jaunt over to the Cleveland Marathon/Half-Marathon site and got kind of pumped up. 13.1 miles. Yes. I’m going to do it. I know I can do it. Now what do I do? I guess I better mark it in the calendar and get registered here soon. Oh yeah, by the way, David doesn’t know about this. I thought I’d hit him with it when he comes home. I’m thinking he’s not going to do it, but we shall see.
After the family gathering we all convened at the ‘rents house for Cassidy to open gifts and to open Grandma and Grandpa Quirie’s gifts. Since I had all of my siblings present I thought it’d be the best time to present them with their joint gift from me. (They should all be present on Christmas too, but timing may not be on my side). I made a slideshow of all of us through the years. It’s 12 minutes long so I’m not sure how I’ll be able to get it on YouTube. The only thing I can think is to compress the file, but if I do that it will have to be done at a later date. As I’ve stated in previous posts, I prefer my gift giving to be thoughtful, which isn’t always a high dollar item. I hope it’s something that everyone can look at throughout the years, and I hope to add on to the movie in the future.
It’s time for me to go to bed but I must post one more thing. It’s a post that requires it’s own title….
What day is it? Ah, Thursday. Almost to the weekend. Yesterday was my half-day of work and due to Doc having an appointment our schedule got flipped to morning hours. That means I had yesterday afternoon off. Nice. I got home and was at a loss of what to do with myself. No school work, no cleaning. And as ya’ll already know, I’m not a big tv watcher so I didn’t want to sit and watch tv. Uh. Okay. File Cabinet! I could go through the file cabinet and get rid of outdated, not-needed paperwork. Never fear. Heidi can always find something to do. I was in the middle of organizing and purging while jamming out to some music, when David came home. I was surprised to see him home already. Whew! Time flew. That meant it was time for our run. Due to the cold and snow we’ve found that running at night has been the way to go during the winter. It takes a bit of tweaking with your schedule, but it’s worked.
We debated as to what route we should run. The side streets are still slushy so we were going to try to avoid those at all costs. We decided on our route which we hadn’t done in awhile. Basically an out and back route on a decently traveled road. In order to get to the heart of the route we had to travel down a side street. Not fun. Slushy also means slippery. But by the time we got to the main road we were fine and took off. For the first time we ran our entire route in the street. If you could see our sidewalks, you’d understand why. On our morning runs we tend to run certain parts of our routes in the street but you’re not dealing with traffic at 5am, meaning you can run down the middle. Being a decently traveled road we had to stay as close to the side as possible, meaning we were running on an angle almost the entire time. That’s tough on your knees and hips for sure. When we hit our halfway point and turned around we also ran into wind. So not only were we battling traffic and running on an angle, we were battling wind coming off the lake. It was a hard run. A run where I thought I was going to have a horrible pace. It almost felt as though I was running in place. But to my surprise my time wasn’t bad. Huh, well that’s good.
Last night was a “date” night for us. My generous ‘rents watched the kids while we went to the movies. I know what most of you are thinking, “the “kids” are dogs, why do they need to be watched?” Well, Viking’s been going stir crazy as well. He’s been whining to go outside but once he gets outside he doesn’t go far with the snow. And with having hardwood floors he can play but it’s not as fun since he can’t grip well. The ‘rents have carpet and both the dogs live it up when they visit over there. So we couldn’t decide what to do….take the dogs over there to run or go to the movies and leave the dogs here. Well, the ‘rents offered to pick them up and take them over their house while we did our thing. Kill two birds with one stone. That also gave Sloopy someone to play with. Needless to say both of the dogs slept quite well last night. Thank you so much mom and dad!
We went to see the movie Enchanted. Quite cute. I guess it’d fall in the category of chick flick but it was funny at the same time. A good family movie. David will even admit that he liked it. But I have such a great husband. Of course, for many reasons, but one thing he’ll do is watch chick flicks with me and not complain. Believe it or not I think he actually likes them at times.
This morning David had to go into work early but I got up with him to get a run in. I had my route in my head, got all geared up, and went out. I didn’t even make it to the end of the street and had to turn around. The slush had turned to ice. There was a ton of black ice too, meaning once I hit a main street I’d still be chancing it. Not worth it. I came back in and did some pilates. Maybe the roads will clear even more today and I’ll be able to fit in a run tonight. If not atleast I’ve done the pilates. I’ll admit I wasn’t complaining too bad when the roads weren’t acceptable this morning….my right hip is killing me and I can only guess that’s from running on an angle yesterday. When I started running I didn’t know it’d be this adventurous. Little did I know…
Today was a high anxiety day. No specific reason. My anxiety was just high, period. Sometimes I go through times like that, but I think I could also contribute not running to the mix. No outlet for me. I knew running was important to me on a multitude of levels…from anxiety, having a place to burn off energy, feeling heathier, and feeling like I have a choice of what I can eat instead of counting every little calorie. On the anxiety side I’ve had a day here and there where I can tell I haven’t run, as my anxiety is up. And as stated in previous posts, as time goes on, I am understanding runners and their mindsets…going out at all hours just to run, in the freezing cold, or in the hot sun. I’ve now entered the next phase of needing and wanting it. Kind of like a drug I guess. After having 4 days off of running I was about it freak out in my own skin. I needed it and needed it bad. I was determined to do anything to get it. Scary I know. But at least I recognize it. In all honesty if it weren’t for others telling me, “don’t go out and run in this weather,” I’d probably be out attempting to run in it.
During my workday I gave David a quick holler to see if he’d be interested in walking the mall tonight. It’s not running, but at least I’d be up, moving, feeling as though I’m doing something. He was game and then he brought up the idea of going to the YMCA. Heck yeah! A few weeks ago we got 4 free guest passes from his coworker. We had been planning to use them to swim, but remember, I was willing to do anything to run. I got home and we zoomed over to the Y and hit the treadmills. My first official treadmill experience wasn’t bad. It was definitely different. It took me longer to go the distance I wanted to reach and it seemed rougher on my knees. It also took my body some getting used to. But I didn’t fall or make a fool out of myself. And the best thing…we got to run.
So now I can compare treadmill running with outside running. As everyone says, there are pros and cons to each. To point out a few….Running outside definitely lets you be more “free” and is more relaxing to me. You also have more to look at and it’s great to get fresh air. But you have to deal with the unexpected elements and safety can be an issue. The treadmill helped me keep better pace and with living in Sandusky, it may be able to help me with inclines a little better than outside running. Being inside with other people around me was kind of claustrophobic. And as stated, it was harder on my knees and leaves you with a weird sensation after getting off…almost like you’re on one of those flat conveyor belt like walkways at an airport.
As of now we’ll be sticking with outside running but we see the Y as an option if needed. At this point we don’t want to jump the gun by joining. I’m not really into the whole driving somewhere to workout type of thing. I like to walk outside and go. But with the crazy winter weather it may be worth it. And having other options like swimming would be nice. But they do offer day passes, which is also an option for days that we can’t go outside or want to try out our fins in the pool. Only time will tell. The snow/ice has started to melt in the streets and all of the main streets are pretty clear. Hopefully by tomorrow they’ll be even more clear, making it possible for us to head outside. I’ll worry about that tomorrow. But for now I’m glad I have my sanity back….at least for the time being.
There’s ice still on the ground meaning no running for today, again. David was so gracious to surprise me yesterday with a pair of YakTrax in hopes to help me out. They are things to put on your shoes that help you grip ice/snow. However, all that was available was the walker version meaning they probably aren’t strong enough to withstand constant pounding from running. Ah well. He tried and I’m truly thankful. As of now I have an email into Erika and hope to get a reply soon to know what she recommends. She told me a few weeks back about a specific brand, but the name has left my mind. By the time I get them the snow will have melted and I won’t need them. But at least I’ll be prepared for the next snowfall.
Christmas is coming. What does that mean? Holiday parties. When I think of Holiday Parties, I think stress. Thankfully we only have one gathering. The thing is, it’s the stressful to go to one. Actually, I enjoy them thoroughly. It’s the preparation that’s stressful for me. No, not the cooking, cleaning, etc. It’s the trying to find something to wear. I know 9 out of 10 people could care less what I’m wearing, but it’s still something I dread thinking about. The bottom line is I don’t dress up. I have no reason to dress up. I wear scrubs when I work, which is 5-6 days per week, and I work 12 hour days. What does that mean? I live in my scrubs. When I get home I don’t change out of my scrubs and get all dolled up. If anything, I hop in the shower and get cozy in PJ’s and head to bed. And on my off days it’s jeans and a t-shirt or sweater. Gone are the days that I dressed up for school at least 2 days a week. I couldn’t imagine a career change at this time. Not only would I hate dressing up everyday but I would have nothing to wear. And when I say nothing, I mean nothing. You open my closet and 3/4 of my clothes are scrubs. No joke.
The only time I dress up is usually for family gatherings. And that usually requires a purchase of a new outfit. Having already worn an outfit for the last gathering, Heaven forbid I would wear it to the next. Then add on top of that, with my ever changing weight none of the clothes ever fit. I always have every size on God’s green Earth in my closet, BUT the size I need. And you know I can’t just walk into a store, pick out an outfit and have it be perfect. Oh, do I wish that were the case. I think dress pants are even harder to find than jeans. They will fit perfectly around the waist but will drag on the ground (and that’s with 3 inch heels!). And it’s not something that you can easily rig with safety pins or something. We’re talking about 3 inches on the ground. But if I go with the petite sizing, they’re high waters. Then you have all of these gorgeous dresses for the winter season. All with no sleeves. Right. Like I’m going to got out in a dress with no sleeves. What are they thinking?
So basically what it comes down to is for anything that I must dress up for, I have to go out and purchase an outfit that by next season/year I cannot wear due to already having worn it or size. I hold on to it for a few years, which crowds my closet, and then finally get rid of it. What a waste. And as stated in a previous post, I’ve recently become more aware of my wastefulness. I am truly thankful for all I have, but I look at it all, especially clothes-wise, and it hurts my heart. By being more aware of my wastefulness shopping is definitely not as fun anymore but at least I’m aware of it. Instead of buying it just because it’s cute I go through the “do I need it?” questions and 99% of the time it’s answered with a “no.” I think I’ll just stick with my scrubs and jeans for the time being. Try to simplify. Only give me the bare necessities, in all aspects of my life. I’m not there yet, nor will I ever be. But I can try.
As for this weekend’s family gathering. I have no idea what I’m going to wear. I think it may just be jeans. This I do know, my closet has gone through it’s purge for this month and it’s nice having space. I think I’ll keep it that way.
I feel rather uneducated with the whole snowstorm that’s going on. I worked until noon yesterday, and knowing that the storm warning started at noon I was on guard. On guard that I decided not to run yesterday. David and I got some things done and then headed home around 2ish….that’s when the snow flurries started. He decided to hunker down and watch Pirates 3 for the evening. Considering it still wasn’t too bad we ordered a pizza for dinner and David picked it up. The snow continued but there wasn’t much accumulation. I kept reading the weather reports only to find that Saturday wasn’t the worse of the storm. So wait, we stayed in on Saturday for no real reason? Aw man.
I woke up at 5am this morning, looked outside to see that all the snow in the streets had melted. “Cool, maybe I’ll get a run in today,” I thought to myself. I went back to sleep for a bit and woke up around 9am. I looked outside again and found that yes, I the storm had arrived. At this point we have 1.5-2 inches of snow present on the ground. Looks like we’ll be staying in for the rest of the day. So much for going to Aunt Therese’s graduation (although yesterday we kind of figured that’d be a no go) and going to the Henry family gathering. We’ll light some candles and hunker down for one more day.
I know, I should be fine with staying at home, chilling, but doing that right before Christmas is hard. You want to get out and get things done. Not to mention, it’s the weekend. You almost wish it would happen in the middle of the week in hopes of not having to go to work. I guess the tradeoff there is no pay though. At this point we’re unsure if we’ll be working tomorrow. It looks like it’s supposed to taper off this evening, which I think will give plowers enough time to clean things up. We shall see. For now I’m going to get some cleaning done and enjoy the alone time with David cuddling with the kids…that is, until it’s time to shovel.
Good Thursday to ya’ll. The weather cleared up enough for a run this evening. Whew. I needed it. It wasn’t a stressful day from work but I was determined to get out for a run. I was all pumped coming home from work, jammin’ in the car, then when I got home I hit a few snags. I wanted to try my MP3 player out for the first time during a run. I didn’t change the ear buds before going to Hawaii but determined while on the trip I needed to change them to a smaller size. So I went to change them and do you think I can find the 2 extras sets provided? Nah, of course not. Frustration. Don’t you hate it when you put something in a safe place so you won’t lose it and then you end up losing it anyway? This drives me crazy! I still chose to take my MP3 just to try it out. Then I forgot my Garmin walking out the door. That’s what happens when you’re out of routine, you forget things. I went back inside and grabbed it. Then it wouldn’t pick up a signal. It took so long that I ended up back inside….why freeze outside while it waits to pick up a signal? I was truly frustrated at that point along with being hungry. All while being determined to go for a run. And at that point I knew I truly needed that time to myself, even if I had already worked a 12 hour day. It finally got the signal and off I went.
Running with music/MP3 player is definitely different than what I’m used to. It may take some time getting used to….getting the perfect volume, figuring out where to put the thing (it has a clip and most of my clothes have a pocket for such a device but I want to be able to change it if need be. I ended up wrapping the excess earphone cord around the unit and held it. You also have the constant “thump, thump, thump” in your ears from the cords moving.
I started out with Shrek 2′s “I Need A Hero.” Then it was Dirty Dancing Havana Nights’ “Do You Only Want To Dance?”, then it took off to Michael Sembello’s “Maniac” Awww yeah! Kickin’ it up a notch. All I could do was think of was the new Kia commercial with the guy dancing to Maniac. Eminem’s “Til I Collapse” started up but I had to change it….too slow at the rate I was going. I finished up to Israel Houghton and New Breed’s “Favor Of The Lord” I was definitely moving at that point and even debated whether to go longer, but I had David waiting at home (He had already run) ready to watch some Pirates 3 (we only started the special features tonight due to time).
I was pumped to see what my Garmin had to say but was also ready to have disappointment if I hadn’t kept as good of a pace as I thought. Well, I had a pleasant moment when the Garmin read that I had one of my best times to date. Sweet. Maybe I will stick with the MP3 player. It definitely kept my mind going. It’s also amazing how much noise you realize you make. Maybe people won’t understand me…but with the earbuds in it’s almost like wearing ear plugs and you hear the breathing noises you’re making. I thought to myself, “Do I always breathe that loud? Is it noticable to those around me?” Weird. I wonder what the player will have in store for me on my next run. Oh what fun. No more mental MP3 for me!
As stated previously the whole jet lag has been throwing us for a loop. Yesterday morning we woke up at 5am only to realize that we still hadn’t slept all night. We decided to sleep another hour and not run due to our exhaustion. During the day I received a call from David wondering if I’d be interested in going for a run after work. I was game so when I got off we headed out for a run. It felt good even with my legs being sore from Tuesday. (More than likely from having too many days off of running.) We both finally slept a good night’s sleep last night for the first time in a long time. We woke up ready and raring to go at 5am. We got dressed, stretched, then I looked outside to find that David’s car was covered in ice….freezing rain. We attempted to go outside to check it out and found that it was an ice rink when you stepped on the sidewalk. That’s when we had the thought, “you know, it might not be a good idea to go out running in this.” So I’m definitely glad that we ended up running yesterday night and I’m hoping that when I get home tonight it may have cleared up a bit and I can get out for a run. If not, I’ll then hope that it’s better tomorrow so we can run, even though Friday’s are “non-running days.” Gotta get back into the swing of things whether mother nature wants us to our not. We need to invest in some running spike things. That way we’re ahead of the game.