Recently I had the realization that this month is my 5yr running anniversary. I know on Wednesdays I’ve been talking about getting back to basics. I’ve even covered mixing it up by registering for a fun race, claiming I am a runner, and even how I chose my running shoes. This blog post may seem a bit off track, but bear with me.
For those that don’t know, although not always under the name Banana Buzzbomb, I’ve been blogging since 2006. Having a blog is awesome on so many levels. One of those is that it’s cool to look back at what changes you’ve gone through in your life. I was able to look back to 2007 and read about my progress with running. I wanted to share with you how it all began for me and prove to you that darn near anyone can become a runner.
Note: Although I now run alone I began running with a friend named Jen and another named Sue, who are referenced in my blog posts.
May 1, 2007
As all of you know I’ve been attempting a lifestyle change and have so far succeeded. Now, on to the next change. Trying to get more exercise. I have come to the conclusion….I am going to run.
This is a longshot, especially for me. I’m not a runner. I can’t make it once around a track…ok, I’ll be honest, I can’t make it halfway around a track. But I always have dreams of having springs on my shoes and just running so smoothly. I don’t think that will ever happen but I just want to break the barrier and actually be able to run. Even if I have to wear 2 sports bras to support myself. I just have this drive in me to get out there and do this. And if I’ve found something in myself with keeping to my lifestyle change, if I believe in myself, I can do it. And as always, I like to take challenges that I see in my life, and take them head on, one by one to conquer them.
I’ll be straight up though…if I do succeed with this running idea I can possibly see this being a “negative” thing. By negative, I mean it’s something I could possibly become obsessive with considering my OCD behavior. But why down the idea before even trying? I’m willing to take the risk…not to mention, I may not succeed. Nah, I’m not leaving any room for failure…I will succeed. Bottom line. I claim it now.
May 3, 2007
Yesterday was our first attempt at running. And guess what? I definitely didn’t learn how to run in my sleep. It was definitely tough…for me at least. Jen did really well, and I’m very happy for her. She has such a smooth gait whereas I feel like I’m moving a lot but not going very far. She was definitely my motivation to keep going. My biggest fear is that she’ll give up on me if I don’t get any better, mostly because she’ll be able to out run me. But her positive thoughts helped me through yesterday while at the same time pushing me to push myself. I think I need to change my mindset. I went into thinking “we can do this…”whereas she went into it scared and our outcomes were totally opposite….she did better than me. Did I set myself up for failure? Nah. I can’t say I was upset at the outcome. I think I had a “realistic” mindset. It didn’t go entirely as planned but at least it got me off of my butt to get out there and start running. It’s amazing what your body goes through when you’re exercising. First your butt burns, then your thighs, then your chest (lungs).
One thing that did dishearten me was my actual chest, meaning my boobs. I doubled my bras and didn’t seem to have any problems while actually running but when we were cooling down, doing a brisk walk, that’s when it started. And then when we got to their house my chest started screaming at me. I couldn’t believe how much they hurt. It felt like someone was literally squeezing both of them and trying to rip my nipples off. Sorry to be so graphic, but there’s no other way to explain. It was the type of pain that the takes your breath away and your eyes just start to water. But after a few minutes sitting on Jen and Joe’s bathroom floor feeling like I was going to die because I didn’t know what to focus on…wanting to vomit or my boobs falling off….I was better and started recuperating. I guess it’s back to the drawing board for bras….maybe the double bras idea wasn’t such a good idea?? I can’t see that being an issue though. I definitely don’t want them moving but that the same time I can’t squeeze the crap out of them either. I dunno, maybe I’ll just have to suffer like all the other women out there with fibroids.
Well, another day done and on to the next….the plan is to continue today….baby steps, baby steps….I’ll get there.
May 8, 2007
After 3 days break and letting my body recoup we hit the pavement again yesterday. And to be quite honest I was amazed at how well we did. I managed to hit a new goal that wasn’t even planned and I didn’t feel like I was going to die either. Can it be true? Am I actually getting the hang of this? I’m not going to hold my breath. Not that I didn’t already know what gave runners their drive, but after that run I was totally energized and ready to run again. I know, patience…patience. I plan to get on a schedule of Monday, Wednesday, and Friday and I’ve started keeping a form of a journal so when I have one of those bad days I can look back and gain confidence in seeing how far I’ve come. Even in 3 runs, it’s truly amazing.
I had no high expectations because I’m feeling about the same as I was yesterday. But about halfway through when I do my usual “nerd walk” for a block I felt the urge to keep going, so I did. And I made it the entire route of 0.7 miles running! Woot!! Now mind you that last leg I had to keep encouraging myself by actually talking to myself saying “Come on Heidi. You’re almost there.”, but I did it and I’m proud of myself.
May 29, 3007
I had a personal best today of 1.3 miles. What?! Yep, you read right. I ran my entire route and then a short brisk walk for about 0.1 miles then the route again…which then added up to 1.3 miles. At the end of 2 routes I also speed (AKA nerd) walked another way around the route. Yay! My neighbor up the way, Sue, decided to join me this morning so as I ran past her house she ran out. She’s real athletic but is “out of shape” at this time. So for the first time ever I ran with someone that I was “better” than. She still kept up with me though! I’m liking this morning run stuff. Up before the rest of the world and when the sun hasn’t come up yet. Perfect!
As you can see, becoming a runner was a huge challenge for me. I still see running and triathlons as a journey, but I love it.
If you are in the beginning of your running journey know that you have to start somewhere and keep at it! The payoff is well worth it. I’d also recommend documenting your journey in some way whether in a blog or journal. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve referenced my old blog posts when I’m in a running slump. They remind me how far I’ve come and provide motivation to keep going.
Experienced runners, do you have the beginnings of your running journey documented in some way and do you ever revisit them…or is this just me??
Keep Smiling and Be Grateful =)