As I’ve stated previously, throughout my life I’ve always had clear visions of short-term and long-term goals. I knew what I wanted and pretty well how to get to where I wanted to be. But, did I really know what I wanted or was it just society telling me what I wanted?
Throughout our lives we are not only taught how to think but often what to think. Unfortunately I see this only getting worse as the years go on. i.e. teachers basically being forced to teach to the test in order for their students to get passing scores.
Like so many, I fell prey to this thinking. I did everything I was told to do in hopes of achieving success in return. What you’re not told growing up is that when you follow the “rules” life is still a crap shoot. Nothing is guaranteed. And often you have to make your own rules in order to succeed.
I thought I’ve always had a clear direction when it came to all aspects of my life. Now that I’m digging a little deeper I’m venturing into uncharted territory for me. No one to tell me what to do, how to think, or what direction to take my life. I like things black and white, not gray, yet recently I’m finding myself smack dab in the middle of gray. This is quite scary for me.
For so long I thought I was blazing my own trail, when in reality yes, I was blazing a trail, but I was being lead by society. From my thinking, how I dressed, to the life choices I’ve made, or the choices I make on a daily basis. I’m not bitter. I just wish I had figured it out a bit sooner. It’s time for me to make my own rules and really blaze my own trail. Things will fall into place. They always do.
Keep Smiling and Be Grateful =)