As you all know I’ve voiced my concern over the lack of holiday spirit I’ve had over the past few years. I heeded my advice to take this head on and I must say my holiday spirit is in full swing! Woohoo! Here’s what we’ve done so far that just so happens to be working….
We’ve got our tree - My family always had the tradition of setting up the tree the day after Thanksgiving. Sadly no live trees were to be found that weekend here in Arizona. We’re not sure if things don’t get rolling around these parts that soon (Maybe due to the heat and the ability for the trees to “keep” that long?) so we had to remain patient. The Home Depot crew must have thought us crazy when we were so excited for the arrival of their first few trees. DH made the final decision on our choice. It’s pretty small. No ornaments. Quite sparse. Slightly irregular. Lots of spirit. Perfect for us. Nothing like the glow of a Christmas tree to light the room at night.
We found Christmas lights - I went on a recon mission to find the best lights in Phoenix and hit the jackpot. This past weekend we visited the Phoenix Zoo for Zoolights. While it’s still a bit weird that it’s not freezing, Phoenix has had a bit of a cold spell and we were able to bundle up for the event, making it a little more Christmas-like.
Also, thanks to AZCentral’s Holiday Lights map we’ve got a ton of addresses marked to check out this holiday season, and made sure to pass by a few on the way home from Zoolights.
St. Nick came - So, from my feeds I guess many people don’t know who St. Nick is or what St. Nick Day is. Growing up I thought everyone celebrated it. Then I thought it was a Catholic thing. Now I think it’s because I’m of German descent. Who knows! But, it was one of those things I always looked forward to growing up….coming downstairs on December 6th to find my stocking filled with knick knacks, soap, small toys, ornaments, and always gold chocolate coins and an orange. I’ve been saying for years I want to fill DH’s stocking for St. Nick Day and never got around to it. Sadly I missed it again but my work schedule allowed me to get a few things to surprise him when he came home from work. So, while St. Nick was a little late, he still came
We had the opportunity to do good and we took it - I haven’t posted what we did or the circumstances that it happened anywhere. Actually, only DH and the person that we helped knows what happened. Why? Because doing good isn’t about being boastful or showing the world what you did. Ahem, humblebrags. While this opportunity was unexpected, leading to a spur of the moment decision, DH and I have made another conscious decision to give back and help those in need this winter and look forward to putting our plan into action soon. It’s important to note that we don’t see doing good as only a holiday thing. We do our best to do good throughout the year, the holidays just give us even more reason to make it a priority.
We’re enjoying tasty treats - Surprisingly enough, over the past few weekends I could be found in the kitchen. First I made chocolate chip cookies and this past weekend I made buckeyes. I don’t see the holidays as a time to totally let myself go but it’s ok to indulge every so often in traditions. It also allows me to spread some cheer by sharing the holiday treats I’ve made.
We’ve focused on feeling close to family even though we’re far away - We can’t be together during the holidays, so sharing photos, videos, and conversation via a shared iPhoto album with my family helps me feel all warm and fuzzy. Every day I’m simply amazed by technology and I make every attempt to remind myself how grateful I am for this blessing.
Even my grandma is making her presence known - Yes, she passed 6 months ago but I think of her every day. I’ve been repeatedly blessed with random dimes and pennies over the past several weeks. As crazy as it sounds I see them as “pennies from heaven” and “signs in dimes”. I have no doubt it my mind that every time I happen across a coin it’s a sign that one of my loved ones is near me. It’s no coincidence that I’m experiencing an abundance during this season, especially when it’s been so challenging and I’m doing my best to not only welcome but spread the holiday spirit. It’s as though she’s saying, “Heidi, you’re doing good. Keep it up.”
While I’m so happy that the holiday spirit is alive and well, I must remind myself not to get wrapped up in continuing to search for it. Now that it’s here I plan to enjoy it and spread it whenever I can.
Keep Smiling and Be Grateful =)
Thank you for the feedback I received from Monday’s post. It’s always great to receive awesome feedback from a post I’ve written. It’s true. You never know what will strike a cord with people. Obviously it struck a cord with many of you as it did with me.
This is going to be short and sweet post. It’s much too long for a Twitter or Facebook update, but it’s been on my mind lately…
Something I’ve recently taken note of is the amount of people that have the word “inspiring” in self-written bios on social media sites. Whether it says, “Inspirational runner…” or “Former fat body turned runner, inspiring others to get off of their butt…” What throws me off is when someone calls them self inspirational. Are they inspiring others? I’m sure they are. But in my opinion it’s not something that can be self-proclaimed.
It’s kind of like a Christian saying, “I’m a good Christian.” As the saying goes, actions speak louder than words. If one is truly what they are then no further qualification is needed.
Is running your thing? Then run. Whether you run to for fun, competition, weight loss, or whatever it may be….just run. It goes back to what I’ve written about before….Whatever it is, if you do it genuinely, then there’s no need for “ulterior” motives. Just do what you do, things will fall into place, and you may just end up naturally inspiring others. But let them decide…not you.
When I first started running I had the all or nothing mentality. More often than not I was in the “all” boat. No matter what, I was out running. In other words, no excuses. The same could be said about my diet at the time. As time moves on I’ve learned more about life and more about myself. What it comes down to is that there is a time and a place for “no excuses”. But if I live my life day in and day out with that mentality I’m really setting myself up for failure.
For instance, I’ve learned to listen to my body and accept that there will be a day or 2 during the month where I will have uncontrollable female cramping issues. I recently read a post about how women should push through this and not use it as an excuse. For several years I took this advice to heart and attempted to push through, only to be met with disastrous results. Then one day I asked myself, “Why am I doing this to myself?” Call me crazy, but not being able to run because of cramps that cause me to double over and have bodily fluids coming out of both ends of my body is not an excuse. Needless to say, I’ve learned to understand when it’s appropriate to push through discomfort and when it’s time to dial back. Not only with this, but my body in general.
While “failure” may be immediate, more often than not it won’t be experienced in the short term, but in the long-term. Of course this could mean physically. For example, continually pushing your body resulting in a nagging injury. That goes back to the idea of when, how intense, and how long to push yourself. Another aspect to consider is mental pressure. A big reason I run (and why many others do too) is for “therapy”. Unfortunately at times I’ve allowed my therapy to become the cause of my anxiety. Vicious cycle, eh?
Those are both very important. But what’s even more important to me? Understanding that while I run, my life isn’t all about running. Or while I hike, my life isn’t all about hiking. And so on. I love it all but my life is so much more and I can’t let one single thing or activity consume me physically and mentally. If I choose to block out the rest of my life, relationships, needs, or obligations, then that’s the biggest failure.
As I got ready for my run this morning I saw the look in Viking’s eyes just begging to be taken for a hike. It’s been months since he’s been on the trails due to heat and rattlesnakes. He must sense the coolness in the air because any other day he wouldn’t bat an eye at me preparing to head out. After seeing him I was torn. I wanted to run but I wanted to give him the opportunity to hike. I couldn’t do both but I could do one. That’s when #wycwyc came to mind.
A couple weeks ago Carla AKA MizFit, a fellow blogger I admire, brought #wycwyc to my attention. It means: what you can, when you can. (Come to find out it was her friend Roni who came up with the concept). Dealing with my injury and changes over the past year it really struck a cord. It’s no surprise that ever since I saw the hashtag it’s been in the forefront of my mind.
There’s simply no way I could deny Viking the chance to go for a hike today simply because I wanted to fit in a run. Sad as it sounds, at the age of 11 I know Viking’s years with us are limited and who knows how much longer he’ll be able to truck through a hike. So while I didn’t get a run in I was still active and got to spend time with my boy. #wycwyc.
It also comes to mind during my lunch time runs. Due to my limited time I can’t knock out big mileage, but I can still get in 2.5 miles or so. Or when I do have time but cannot run the entire distance due to my nagging (but healing) injury. #wycwyc.
To me #wycwyc isn’t about killing yourself to fit it all in. It’s also not an excuse. It’s respecting yourself. It’s respecting your life. It’s respecting your relationships. To me that’s the most important of all.
Keep Smiling and Be Grateful =)
Can it really be Thanksgiving next week?! So hard to believe.
When Halloween rolled around this year I didn’t feel in the spirit and it freaked me out a bit. Over the past several years my holiday spirit has been waning. In fact, I actually have not one, but two posts titled, “Where are you Christmas?” here on the blog. First it started with Christmas and has slowly crept earlier and earlier. This was the first year that felt indifferent toward Halloween. It’s sad because it used to be my fave holiday. DH and I used to go all out for both Halloween and Christmas. Decorations both inside and out. It’s hard for me to even fathom doing any of that now. What’s the deal?
It’s not like I’m all bah humbug. It’s just that I’m indifferent. Don’t get me wrong, I want to feel that warmth and joy that supposedly comes with the holiday season. (Does that really exist or is it really one of those things we happen to think is better than it was after the fact….know what I mean?)
Things that make the holidays hard to grasp:
Away from family - While being away from family make the holidays easier to deal with, (No running from here to there) the season just feels…empty. Not that I want to be going to a million parties but with with absolutely none slated for our calendars the season really is anti-climatic.
Warm weather - The lack of cold or snow leaves me scratching my head, asking, “What month is it even?” Since we’ve moved to Phoenix I swear the “eternal summer”, as we like to call it, has made the months fly by.
Even though we lived through eternal summers in New Orleans we always went home to Ohio for the holidays. Even though it was different we still anticipated family time/cold, and kept us on some sort of “cycle”. Last year was our first year away for the holidays. While it didn’t feel like the holidays much last year it seems like this year it’s kicked up a notch.
No decorations - I spoke about this last year but we have no holiday decorations. We either sold them prior to our move or left them in Ohio. I can’t remember the last time we even had a tree. Last year my friends Heather and Will were so kind to send us new stockings to hang so we had something.
Grownup Christmas List - We all know that the holiday season shouldn’t be about gifts, but let’s face it, gifts tend to grab much of the focus of the season. Over the past several years I’ve really focused on reducing my wants and focusing on needs, so when my mom says, “What do you want for Christmas?” nothing really comes to mind. If anything, I have a grownup Christmas list: money for bills or to put towards travel.
Sure, when I walk into a mall I still see stuff that I “want” but most often that’s a knee jerk reaction. Once I think it through I realize those wants aren’t necessarily needed or even realistic. While it may sound totally stupid, with all of these thoughts going through my head (I want that, I don’t need that, but I want a different look, but that’s not realistic, not to mention I can’t afford it….you get the idea) going to the mall is a pretty stressful event for me. In fact, just last week with all the hustle and bustle and being surrounded by crazy consumerism my anxiety went through the roof and I had a near brush with a panic attack before getting myself in check.
Lack of Holiday Meals - I’m not saying vegans can’t enjoy holidays, but let’s be honest, the standard fare at holiday parties isn’t targeted to vegans. Of course no parties/get togethers for us means no need to dodge food….But that means I have to veganize on my own or go without. Considering I’m not a huge fan of cookimg I’m opting out. Truth: we created homemade pizzas last year on Christmas. That’s about as fancy as I get. I enjoy Christmas cookies so I’ll usually make a batch but that also means we have a ton o’ cookies to eat between ourselves.
While being thankful and spreading cheer is something that should be done throughout the year (and something I attempt to do) I really want to feel that “holiday cheer” that I’ve been lacking. How am I going nip this in the bud? Well, since I have yet to do it for the past several years I have absolutely no clue….but it’s worth a shot. Here are a few things I’m going to try…..
Get a Christmas Tree - It’s so wasteful but we’re going to get a miniature real tree. I’m opting for real so we don’t have to store an artificial one. It won’t have ornaments but we can get a small strand of lights. There’s nothing light watching a movie by the light of a lit tree.
Candles - Due to Jax’ asthma and the heat of Arizona we never have or use candles. However, DH picked up 2 very lightly scented candles today. Another way to make our house more cozy…or something.
Make our own traditions - We tried last year by going out to see Christmas lights and then a hike on Christmas. Let’s see if we can keep that up and add some more.
What else do you think we should try? Would love to hear!
Keep Smiling and Be Grateful =)
I think of most of my blog post ideas when I’m running or driving to work and by the time I reach my destination I often have entire blog posts formulated in my head. Sadly I forget to write them down or just lose my gusto when I sit down to write. Why is it that my topics and stories always seem so much better in my head? Yargh!
I swear I’ve had thoughts going round and round in my head for a few weeks. Now, if I could just sit down and type…..I shall do my best.
This is something sure to give my mom a laugh. Then again, it may just bring an, “I told you so.” You see, when texting came about my mom would reply without fail no matter what. We would laugh because I knew I was guaranteed a response of “K” no matter what. Her explanation? ”I just want to acknowledge you and for you to know I received your text.” It makes total sense, but it still made me giggle.
Over the past several months I’ve realized something. I’m not sure if it’s our society or generation but people just don’t respond anymore. It’s not just in personal communication but has somehow transferred into business conversations. Whether at work or in dealing with brands I’m finding that emails or communication can go unanswered for days. Not saying all emails require a response. I get that. However, if a question is posed or further feedback is required, respond darn it. Even if you don’t have the answer, at least acknowledge the message. I know that not everyone moves at Buzzbomb speed and am reminded of that often by DH. But days? It shouldn’t take days for a response.
What’s worse? When a brand/company gets what they want and then poof, they are gone. In fact, I recently wrote an article for a brand. I knew going into it that they might have me as a ghostwriter and edit the content that I provided. What I didn’t expect was that my article would be seriously edited and someone else’s name smacked on it. All of this after they asked me to write something with a 24 hour turnaround and I busted my butt to make it happen. I had already agreed to write a second article prior to my first being posted. Being a pleaser and true to my word, I followed through, even though I wasn’t pleased with the first article. In the end I submitted my 2nd article and received absolutely no response. And the compensation? Yeah, so much for that.
Sadly, in addition to the above I had a different experience with yet another brand that also left me shaking me head. While I pride myself on partnering with brands I believe in and am willing to take a chance on (Because we’ve all had someone take a chance on us at some point), I’m not immune to being burned.
In fact, I was recently scrolling through my feed and saw one of my blog images being used by a random page I just happen to follow…cropped to remove my watermark, with no credit given to me. Knowing that this type of thing happens on social media and the internet I couldn’t get mad. With that being said, I didn’t think I should let it go unaddressed. I privately contacted the host and politely explained the situation. In less than 24 hours I received a response saying that someone had sent them the image as it was posted, without the watermark, but they’d be happy to give me credit. Simple. Straight forward. Quick response. That’s how it’s done.
So, can we all agree? Just communicate. Heck, if the response is something you don’t think I’ll like and don’t want to cause waves, I don’t care. Give it to me straight and keep it real. Let’s not waste either of our time. I’m not saying we need to be insensitive but I think almost anyone will agree that we’d be much more productive if people were straight forward, to the point, and communicated.
If you happen to follow me on Instagram you’ll know this past weekend was our trip to Disneyland. DH and I decided to take Friday off of work, cash in on our Best Western Rewards points and head to Disneyland for the weekend.
Our 5.5 hour road trip from Phoenix was uneventful…that is, until we ran out of gas. What?! Yes, you read that right. We.Ran.Out.Of.Gas. ”How does that happen?” you may ask. Well, while my Chevrolet Spark is excellent on gas mileage it only has a 9 gallon tank. Heading into California we had just under a half of a tank and thought we were good. Little did we know there would be no gas stations for that long of a stretch. Put those things together and you’ve got a wee bit of a problem. Thanks to a friendly state trooper who happened to stop to check on us, we were on our way sooner than later. Lesson learned, don’t let the tank get that low in my Spark and when traveling from PHX to California, get gas before entering California!
We still made it to Disneyland with plenty of time before heading to Mickey’s Halloween Party. Our Disney World experiences were always at Christmas or spring time, so going during the fall to see the parks all decked out for Halloween was a big draw. Mickey’s Halloween Party is a special event that’s hosted throughout the season that requires separate admission.
Basically the park closes early to general admission visitors and remains open for a limited amount of visitors who have tickets to the party. It was perfect for us because we basically had a half day at the park, got to have “special” experiences that only occur during the party (in addition to all the regular attractions), and didn’t have to pay the full day price. It was awesome to see the Nightmare Before Christmas themed Haunted Mansion along with other changes they made to the park/attractions to make everything match the season. We tried our best to make it to the midnight closing time but must admit we had to call it a night and head back to our hotel by 11:30p.
The next day we chose single day park hopper passes and started out at the Disney California Adventure. Coming from the hometown of Cedar Point it’s hard to live up to awesome amusement park rides so we stuck with themed attractions such as Tower of Terror and Cars Land versus California Screamin’. We hopped between the parks throughout the day and ended up finishing our stay in the Magic Kingdom.
I’ve already been asked, “How does Disneyland compare to Disney World??” I have to admit, this was my biggest concern. After our experience the best I can say is that there’s pros and cons to each. I’ll do my best to explain….
Both parks had many of the same rides but we found them to be slightly different and actually preferred some of them over the WDW versions. We’re not sure if it was our timing but Disneyland seemed much more congested than the WDW parks. We’re figuring WDW has WAY more visitors but are they spread out throughout the parks making the individual parks seem not so busy? Maybe.
If you stay on site at WDW you’re submersed in Disney everything. It’s almost as though you’re in a different world. Everything seems, well, magical. We didn’t have that feeling at Disneyland. However, it was cool to experience the location where it all began and we still fully enjoyed ourselves.
If you want to see more photos you can visit my Flickr account.
I remember becoming fascinated with Walt Disney at a young age and wanted to learn everything I could. Like many, I’ve always seen him as an inspiration….even to this day. Heck, I even quoted him in my senior high school yearbook. Ha!
Although I see Disney World and Disneyland as fun places to go, I also see them as so much more. Something that came from a person that dreamed big, believed in those dreams, went after them, and succeeded. That’s not to say Walt didn’t have his share of setbacks. In fact, due to a disastrous opening day pretty much every press organization that attended predicated the park would fail within a year. And that is just a start.
But every time I walked through those gates it’s as though nothing else matters and when I leave I’m even more inspired to live my dreams.
So as we steer away from the “all inclusive” type of vacations DH and I were once accustomed to, we will always have time for Disney and it will always hold a very special place in our hearts.
Speaking of going after your dreams. You may remember our Indiegogo campaign to raise money to purchase a new drum kit for Unlocking The Truth. DH and I never gave up hope, even when we’d have days with no donations. However, thanks to friends, family, and strangers who also believed, the fund kept slowly increasing. Coincidentally enough, with a little faith, trust, & pixie dust, it’s happened. During our time at Disney we not only met our goal but exceeded it with time to spare.
There’s only one way to dream, and that’s to dream big.
Keep Smiling and Be Grateful =)
I know I’ve recently gushed over how much I love the Phoenix running community. As I was living the Ragnar Trail adventure this past weekend it hit me once again. There we were, a group of eclectic individuals, coming from various walks of life, all coming together to simply run and have a good time. Each of us knew at least one other person, creating this web of a team. As I sat and thought about it I couldn’t help but think, “I am one lucky girl.” The thing is, I’m not just lucky I’ve made some rad connections with the PHX running community, but in life, in general.
Like anyone, I have many focuses in life. One of them? Do good. With any situation, location, relationship I enter, I want to leave it better than how I found it.
During our Ragnar event I was told time and time again, “Heidi, thank you for all of your hard work.” It’s awesome that my team acknowledged the time and effort I put into organizing the logistics for our event. However, I never once saw it as hard work and did it for the sole reason of wanting to make the experience just that much better, easier, and more fun…for all of us. And while they are thankful for everything I have done I am just as grateful to have had the opportunity to make it happen.
I was also recently told, “Heidi, you make good things happen.” I won’t deny that I do tend to make things happen, but I am also not going to sit here and toot my own horn. It’s just not my style.
Some may think this is hard, time consuming, and energy draining. For instance, how do you decide what is “good”? Being the over thinker I am you would think I’d have an issues with this…yet I don’t. Why? Because what it comes down to is realizing that we all have the inherent knowledge of what’s good and bad. It’s not something you have to think about.
Here’s the thing, so often we get wrapped up into “What’s in it for me?” and lose focus on what life is really about. Sure, our goals could be about earning gifts and recognition, but why?
While it’s important to take care of myself I think it’s just as important to work towards the greater good. Because I’ve found that if I do so, everything else will fall into place.
Keep Smiling and Be Grateful =)
Remember how I’ve said I’ve been working on some projects lately? Well, it’s finally time, once again, to announce yet another one of my projects….
I’ve already professed my love for the Phoenix running community so it shouldn’t be a surprise that when I was recently asked to become more involved I jumped at the chance. Let’s rewind a bit.
Back at the #BostonStrongPHX run I met a guy named Dennis who happened to be friends with some of the Cholla Chicks. Our paths crossed once again via mutual friend, Laura, through a Facebook group. Since joining the group Dennis and I have become captains of “sister” Ragnar teams. For anyone that knows all of the planning and preparation that goes into a Ragnar race, you can understand when I say that Dennis and I had a bit of a crash course in getting to know each other.
During one of our Ragnar training runs Dennis presented a project he’s been working on. Knowing I am heavily involved in social media and a person that likes adventure and making things happen, he wondered if I’d come on board to help. And ya’ll know me. I’m ALWAYS up for an adventure and trying something new.
So what was his idea? Back in the spring he had this vision of getting a bunch of friends together to go out for a fun run followed by a happy hour. As we’ve found, there are many running circles in Phoenix and many of them intertwine in some way. Wouldn’t it be cool to get them all together to have a good time?
Shortly after getting the ball rolling on his idea Dennis received news that a very good friend of his was diagnosed with colon cancer. Since then this event has taken on a new meaning. The concept is still the same: getting the community together. However, we’d also like to raise money for colon cancer. After this change we quickly found that although we still want it to be a fun experience, it was going to take a bit more work and organization. And that’s when Southwest Strides was born.
Simply put, Southwest Strides is a group of running enthusiasts dedicated to promoting worthy causes through local events by focusing on the PHX running community, specifically strengthening the network that already exists and building on it.
After doing some research Dennis found and connected with the Colon Cancer Alliance. Already having their own run, the Undy 5000, CCA is perfectly poised as an organization for us to partner with. They have since been more than generous stepping in and providing assistance where needed. While we are not hosting the Official Undy 5000 Phoenix, we have the blessing of CCA to host an Undy Event with all proceeds going to the Colon Cancer Alliance.
So, how is our event different than any other 5k out there? Because, let’s keep it real, EVERY 5k run these days is linked to some sort of cause. First and foremost, our event is really about bringing the community together. A grass roots sort of movement, if you will. People of all athletic abilities are welcome to participate and this will not be a timed event. It’s about getting together to have a good time and meeting new people, followed by a happy hour. And when I say all proceeds will go to CCA that means every single penny. No individuals are getting paid to work or promote the event. All flyers, awards, and time are being donated by those involved.
Our event will be Sunday November 10th, 8am. For more information visit our Facebook event page and register online. If you can’t be at the event or prefer not to participate, you can still donate by visiting the registration page.
To have a little fun we’re having a friendly competition to see who can raise the most money under their name. If you plan on running or walking be sure to request friends and family make a donation in your name. Whoever raises the most money will wn the elusive Golden Undy award along with a special gift from iRun.
As with any group and experience, we’re learning as we go. It is our hope that we will continue having events, choosing a different cause/organization of choice for each event, and growing and strengthening our community in the process. We hope you join us!
Keep Smiling and Be Grateful =)
Reminder: If you’re in the PHX area, have you entered my Girls on the Run 5K giveaway?
Over the past year I’ve really focused on taking a step back, going with the flow, and especially making a point of being present in the moment. As my plate has become fuller this past month I’ve found myself regressing back to my old thinking.
If the interview process was just over so I would know I git the job or not (For those that missed it, I did get the job!)
If we could just reach our goal for our Unlocking The Truth Campaign….
If Ragnar would just be here (I’m so excited.)
If Ragnar would be done so we can head to Disney!
Then it’s on to another project….details soon….If I can draw just get X number of “likes” in support/attention to that organization and X number of registrations for that event.
This is just the tip of the iceberg. However, it wasn’t until I read some excellent posts by Kierston AKA FU or CandyFit that I realized what I was doing. Not only am I focused on the future, but almost focused on it being over with. What sense does that make?!
I need to remind myself (once again) that it’s not the about the goal. It’s about the journey (Cliche’, I know). In other words, I need to love the in-between and embrace those moments, that are often uncomfortable, which ultimately make up my life.
The in-between moments in EVERYTHING. The burning moments in yoga, during my run, or even my hike. The moments at work when I’m focused on completing a project. The moments as we prepare for whatever path Corvus will take. The moments of uncertainty of where our lives will be going next.
This whole idea reminds me of a video a couple weeks ago that has gone viral. Further reminder that humans don’t like uncomfortable moments…especially when we feel disconnected from others.
Funny enough, prior to seeing the video, I decided to begin driving to and from work with no radio or music. In the past I rarely listened to radio and I hadn’t realized how “dependent” I had become on the noise that it provided. I had to make a legit point of not turning on the radio. With so much noise in my head the silence was a relief. However, as I watched the video after starting the practice I knew exactly what Louis C.K. was talking about. That uncomfortable feeling and the emotions that we go through in the process. So much emotion that we try to avoid by filling with other things.
Unlike many others, I’m not one that feels the need to fill a void with something. In addition, I’ve always openly accepted my emotions and have never been known to hide them. But let’s keep it real, I am go, go, go, always have my hand in something, and am looking towards my next adventure. It’s ingrained in me (and more than likely not going anywhere). That’s not necessarily a bad thing. But it is important that I make sure I’m not wishing my life away either. I need to love the in-between.
Keep Smiling and Be Grateful =)
Wow. Tomorrow is Monday already and I have yet to even stop to take a break for the weekend. I’ve already said this but it’s been a bit insane here in our world the past month.
From organizing Ragnar teams (only 1 month away), to raising money for our Unlocking The Truth Indiegogo campaign (DONATE HERE!), and planning a quick trip to Disneyland, I’ve slowly been revealing all of the projects I’ve been working on. Although there are several more (which are not quite ready to be made public), I can let you in on one more. And it’s a big one!
After almost a year in a contractor position at my workplace, and having multiple internal interviews over the past month, I have been hired on full-time. As ya’ll know this part of my life I like to keep private, so I won’t say where I’m working, but to say I’m stoked is an understatement. What I will say is that I’ll be working in a totally different capacity than I have ever before. I have been looking for an opportunity like this for several years. Even at long lengths in confusion of direction (which I’m sure will come again….) I’m thankful to say that my diligence and patience paid off. And this is a fantastic jumping off point.
With all of this going I was doing what I do best, keeping on top of things, but this weekend has kicked my butt. After receiving word last week that I got the job DH hit the road for a gig in Texas with Corvus. In the meantime I came home to find a mess of cat and dog vomit/diarrhea Friday evening. Given our kiddos health issues that’s often what is to be expected. Thankfully having tile floors and a TON of experience with cleaning I’m pretty good at cleanups. I was hoping it would be a short bout but haven’t been so lucky.
I hit the trails early Saturday morning with some of my Ragnar Teammates. No trail run is complete without some fun, getting lost, and at least one of us taking a spill. This week it was my turn and now I have some war wounds to show for my efforts. With my love of trail running this will not be my last.
Unfortunately following the run I came home to yet another mess. The remainder of the day was spent cleaning and monitoring Spencer, our greyhound. What I had hoped would be a restful night’s sleep ended up with me being awoken every half hour for long bathroom breaks and foot baths due to him stepping in his own feces. In other words, a LONG night. Needless to say both Spencer and I are ready for his bowel issues to get better and for DH to come home too.
With all that has been going and this added to the mix I’m a wee bit spent. But it’s time to get Spencer on the mend and reload because if what’s on the calendar for the next month is any sign, things are not slowing down. Xterra, Ragnar, Disney, developments with Corvus, along with other projects (to be revealed soon!)…We’re just getting started.
Keep Smiling and Be Grateful =)